November 19, 2020

How Are You Feeling

depression is also feeling
"ok" being a huge win, 
a relief from the fog. 

it's your thoughts parting
for long enough to see a 
glimpse of the sun, to recall 
how you wear heat on your 
skin even if you're still kneading 
the chill out of your bones.

November 15, 2020

Healing

To the healers. 
To the healers and the seers.
To the healers and the seers and the doers,

To my beloved empaths. 

We can’t heal unless we’re healing, too.
We can’t carry the weight of woe 
in our bone marrow, can’t hold the shape
of grief, of trauma, of fear, of shadows
in our hands without sifting through
the sands of our own castles and walls,
questioning why we built them thick
when no amount of matter will protect
us, close our eyes, numb us to the world.

To my beloved empaths,
To the healers and the seers and the doers,
To the healers and the seers. 

To the healers. 

We can’t heal unless we’re healing, too.
We’re seven different faces on a Tuesday,
appearing still but in constant, motion. 
It is not possible to ignore and to grow,
decoupling the two severs us into 
fractions that will never become whole. 
We are mosaics of stories, of our own 
of those around us, our ability to know
ourselves is forever intertwined with our
ability to read and comprehend others. 

We can’t heal unless we’re healing, too. 

To my healers, my beloved empaths. 

love is a four letter word,
dismantling, rebuilding, healing
our selves and ourselves
remains our lifetime.

September 9, 2020

"Te Extraño Nena"

if we were speaking, right now
I'd tell you you're charming
that the way words tumble 
around your skull, through
your lips, onto my skin
and into my bones
has to be some sort of magic. 

I'd narrate the strength in your
arms because the strength in
your convictions also uphold
signs of "this is unjust. we
demand more. we seek to
abolish the world as it met us
outside of our mothers' wombs."

I'd show, then likely tell, you
I love your cheeks the most.
Broad stretches of canvas to
paint words on like
you are incredible and 
you are multitudes and 
you are enough. 

we're not speaking, right now.

isn't it harmful that I can know
you're alive, for now. watching
me watching you, saying
everything and nothing at all.

we're not speaking, right now, 
and I still hear you in the silence.

Empath

find them, hold them close
the ones worth feeling for are
there waiting for you. 

These Thoughts Can't Be Trusted

I lie still and my
mind races and zooms and and ~
I just want to rest.